ammunition.

2005-04-01T00:31:00.000-08:00

010405

You're the one who grounds me
When the silence of the world surrounds me

yozzz :) exchanged stuff with shan tday! haha i got my dye. stupid deline victoria soh! now not only will my hair be ugly, it will be black/some dark colour. anyway came home after schl! yep first time in a loooong time! just didnt feel like walking ard town looking like a freak. bleah :( i shant go to gombak stadium either! heartbreak siaaaa! ohwell. there will be other competitions! :) gavrielle oh gavrielle! are we running tmrw! :/ spent bio thinking abt chi culture lessons. ooh huiming is so yukkypoo! the decomposing food she leaves under her desk have dropped out & they're spilling out on the floor! whole cls was ew-ing at it lor! I AM SO SMART TO HAVE A FREAKING PARTITION BETWN MY TABLE & HERS! its not mean, ITS NECESSARY I TELL YOU =x yeah yeah im mean ok bye dear.

watch the stars, they're ours.

2005-03-31T03:21:00.000-08:00

310305

its never too late to be
another last call casualty

its first april tmrw sia! there were 5 people eating during lunch brk & 7 food boxes! WHY OH WHYYYY :D haha me & shan are so appalling. spent bio & cme in sick bay with lixuan! sleep is so good :) whee trg was great! saturday is coming =x =x =x

2005-03-30T03:10:00.000-08:00

300305

this time im mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking

YO IM UGLY :D im seriously ugly. felt miserable whn evryone reminded me of my PAST hair.

spent chi in sick bay with gav & shan! was pretty nice :) but i felt cold, yes in the sick bay. haha.

i like today cos i gosipped with shan! esp during trg. both of us finished so early!
so we sat there & moaned abt how ugly we are and talked abt loads of people too. yay i hereby join the ugly moaning club! amanda & sen are gna be so irritated by us :D

oh & chem was so darn funny! sat with shan & jasmine enqi & shan started doing the most retard thing in the world! putting the pen under ur nose and scrunching up your face to balance it thre! enqi damn funny lah! laughed like craaaazy :)

i felt like crying during trg! after the last 150m! but nah i didnt. talking with shanru cheered me up! haha! juniors are so mean to me can! chaiping is laughing at my chi name! growls! alrightey. ugly girl is going off now :(

2005-03-29T03:36:00.000-08:00

290305

dont leave me high
dont leave me dry

EDITTT
yo im back & UH I LOVE MY HAIR
AHAHA. i was ruffling it in the toilet for half an hr.
whats my problem :D
y'all can pay me money to ruffle it! :)
im miss scruffy.

my hair's short!
i miss my hair!
we met xinfu! SUAAAAY!
ping makes me feel like a pig!
i feel so fucking hated at home! THIS SUCKS!
im gna study now! PROVE THAT FUCKER WRONG!
im sorry for being vulgar.

i feel like crying cos i killed an insect.
i wish i cld just fake insanity & spend my entire life in imh!
i feel like quitting track, & i also don't want to!
and our hearts are on the everglow..
I AM NOT DEPRESSED. IM DISTURBED.

2005-03-28T03:19:00.000-08:00

280305

I don't find faith in your forced feelings,
Not fooled by your misleadings

aw man i want my cd :( sunday was damn nice! & i went all the frigging way to parkway and they didnt evn have my cd. okay expected but it was just so GRAWWWH! im running 400m for nats jnrs. YEAAAAAAAAAAH it was making me feel miserable all day. gavrielle can you pretty please fall sick with me on saturday :) ms tan found me in the canteen and gave my poor head a big thwack for not appearing at trg for um, a month :D mdm mak gave the bdiv an inspiring talk. deline soh very irritating.

oh & i suddenly feel very disgusted with myself thanks to shirlyn toh. :/ hahah happy wondering.

tomolo i can say baibai to mie irritating fringe liaozz! yippiex!

2005-03-26T01:09:00.000-08:00

260305

I'll offer you my hand
It would hurt too much
To watch you die

I GIVE UP.
stupid word, stupid comma, & stupid tub of shit. I CANT STAND THIS!!!

there is more than enough evidence to say my life is a big screwed up fuck. haha if only i cld spend everyday laughing at silly stuff without having to think about..things. hmm. i am trying to resist the temptation of cutting hair. seriously, my hair is so sickening now ahahah. my mom evn told me that she wont mind paying more if i get my hair cut now. NO NO & NO. timing aint right. haha SHHHH.

trying to get that stupid player to WORK. it does not recognise the format of songs downloaded from purevolume. stupid! i am seriously gna cry if it doesnt let me put the songs in. I AM VERY DESPERATE :'( anyone with the early november's i want to hear you sad? SEND ME PLEASE. haiyah i doubt it. -wails

cant tell you how much i wish we could shut up and smile, all we need is an ice cream & a hug! haha cute song!

still my ultimate :)

2005-03-24T20:16:00.000-08:00

250305

i almost had you
but i guess that doesnt cut it

happy good friday. better saturday and best sunday? heh heh so lame. i didn't even go church today lah. the pastor can uh, put my head in a printer. im so baaaaad :| went to macritchie to run ok. believe it or not! was singing in the forest. hahah. and national juniors is STILL at the stupid gombak stadium please. i feel like tearing it down >:| 2nd april!

okay. i miss my best friend! :) i need eighty bucks, haha. will not, must not spend money anyhow anymore. NO RECESS i guess :'( this will be the last sunset that i ever ask of you again, hmm reminds me of choooooong. i want The Silence cd!!! :'( i want music that'll make me cry!

i hate the way i can't say anything PRIVATE here!!! NERISAAAAA! WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN GENTING! I MISS YOU ALOT! AND I WNA SCREAM STUFF TO YOU RIGHT NOOOOOOOW! BEING ALONE IS MAKEING ME GO CRAZY!!! IM SERIOUS!!! (haha i feel like laughing)

ANYWAY. I FOUND IT!!! its not that big an accomplishment actually. shit lor, im seriously going maaaaad. i even dreamt that i will purposely get cancer, and then !!! will !!!! and i can tell !!! without seeming !!!!. HAHAHA. !!!!!!!!!!! EXCLAMATION MARKS ARE LIKE THE ONLY WAY I CAN EXPRESS MY DONT KNW WHAT FEELING NOW!!!!

haha i calmed down. i will get over it anyway :)

2005-03-24T02:22:00.000-08:00

240305

love worn masochist,
with hearts carved
straight across my chest

to far east with neri again today, shant tell you what we did! took um, 45 min to figure out the fuzzy wuzzy thing! ahahah. and neri cut hair. the pinky lady rmbs me! she said "you came before right, cut by tommy!" SMILES. okay anyway we took pics with our own CAMERA in a NEOPRINT MACHINE :) save money yeah!

school wasnt much. me and lixuan got stopped by ng soo ling while fleeing gaily towards the sick bay. SAAAD!

SHERM!
huiming is SO CLUMSY. she dropped everythg i gave her and i was SO fed up. yeah i saw loads of food and uh, tissue? and she pushes her chair so close to me even though theres a big gap btwn the desks! i told her off for that :) heh im meaner!

and i cant stop! thinking! about! it! and! idontwantto!!! fuck, i suck. oh like hey, that rhymes ahahah okay rolls eyes

these eyes they're strongly covered in disguise
they're waiting on the real time again
you'll see that no one knows for sure

for all of this
i'm better off without you
do you regret so
your loneliness

this ride is drifting slowly to the side
we're swerving off the road
going past the cones that warned us from the start
(every day goes, every night goes)
on and on we sing this song
the entire day that's oh so long
every night we sing this song for you

2005-03-23T02:59:00.000-08:00

230305

wheres the pills that cure that thing
that you call sweeping me off my feet

NICE DAY NICE DAY. was sulking real bad esp during maths. my darling table partner lor.. i had my hand permanently covering my left side of the face because she is so large that it is impossible to simply ignore her presence. besides, she cuts into my space and im practically sitting outside my desk trying to get away and avoid CONTACT. also, her hand is permanently under the desk, inbetween her legs and doing FUNNY stuff fooling around with her folded skirt. oh my god i am sitting next to a self arousing pervert.

so i was complaining and complaining and jumping at any excuse to get out of my seat. lixuan still wont let me change my place lah! wntd to sit with tifen since shan didnt come today :( oh well. i separated the desks and she charged into cls and squeezed them tightly together again. but she finally got the message when i parted a damn wide space after the second break HAHA yay i win :)

the new band is SO GOOD! haha i like yanni and celine! chioooooo. or is it shuai. haha and they played damn nice songs lor! me and tifen were like waiting for the fucked part but we missed it in the end. and the here is gone song was just so FULL OF PASSSIOOOON. =x okay not really. but its a nice nice song! oh yeah my cheeks are like so fat now -looks at tifen.

yeo peili spent cls contact time talking about CERTAIN ISSUES. like okay lor, you got a problem with THOSE KIND OF STUFF, but i didnt see why she got to discriminate like that? sickening. and it was just irritating to the max to have certain asses jumping up to tell so called funny stories about thaaaaat. so fucking not funny lah. shitheads

anw laughed alot with neri today lah! both of us just werent bothered to go for the last period of the day so we just walked off to the library to slack. mm and i didnt go trg in the end. to taka with neri for a hi-tea date again! ah so yummy! :) we had one seafood tapaz set, one chicken karaage set and bananaaaa split again! and its alwys neri cannot finish and i will be eating the rest of the ice cream like a pig. oops :(

AND *HIGHLIGHT HIGHLIGHT* WE MET A MOVIE STAR! THE FRENCHIE FROM LES CHORISTES THERE. AT PASTA CAFE. OLD MAXENCE OR SOMETHING!!! so exciting, was trying to take pictures of him and the waitresses were looking pretty suspicious. hahah embarrassing. and we started laughing at alot of stuff. THE TWO FINGERS THING IS SO DAMN FUNNY!

kept laughing at far east, cos of alan and mannequins that were kissing the air etc. practically rolling ard the place lah! poor alan! pls rmb to take off ur specs :p hahah alright shant be mean :) TOMMY was there as usual! -swoons. anyway went to meet him with neri. ahahah! im still so high about it. okay took bus to rtc with neri later. we were like laughing at evrything around?! heh :) todays damn nice! the plus-es overpower the minus-es! yay :)

2005-03-22T04:51:00.000-08:00

220305

don't look at me now
she said with eyes that i can hardly take
cuz im stuck with a smile that doesnt fit me anymore
she said
who wants a life that's filled with semesters
and useless knowledge and wasted credits
you can stay here tonight or maybe forever
and no one has to know
cuz i wont let you go

and i cant wait to write you a letter
for everyday that i cant bear
you can fill these moments with words like forever
but you gotta swear
don't forget to remember me

she said with a smile
that screams of tears and not another word
gonna spend my nights either sleepless or
dreaming about you
she said
who wants a life of lost adolescense
thats filled wtih regrets and anti-depressants
ive said it before and you know that i meant it
youre all i want to know
and i wont let that go

and i cant wait to write you a
letter for everyday that i cant bear
you can fill these moments with words like forever
but you gotta swear
don't forget to remember me

let's just hope that nothing happens
wait forever not for me
life-long problems and last kisses;
all you ever gave to me

2005-03-22T03:15:00.000-08:00

220305

You're the centre of adrenaline
And I'm beginning to understand

school is getting worse!!! heh im whiny :D YEAH GUESS WHAT THE FUCKING HELL HAPPEND TODAY?! im sitting with lee huiming! at first chitra put me with yokteng. so i was like oh fine better than huiming right. and then she told yokteng to change with HER! and even pple like jasmine foo were like "SARAH" with that dot dot dot expression pls. I COULD HAVE CRIED, DIED, ANYTHING.

and all the pple frm other clses have been congratulating me all day :) i don't even nd to tell them and they knw :( oh well.. she tried discussing princess diaries with me today. :'( at least i got shanru on my right, lixuan in front, and elaine and peirong behind. im never ever looking left again :( i still dont belive im sitting with most feared person in the LEVEL.

trg was pretty ok :) laughed abt last yr's celebration at CASTLEGREEN :D hahah. rugby gang of greenridge sec is a bunch of despo monkeys. they were shouting and shouting at us, and one of them came & ask for my no whn we were cooling down lah! and they asked for shan's no when she left the stadium? and then evryone left the stadium and i had to wait for my dad so I WAS ALONE and im SCARED OF MALAY GUYS x1000000!!!!

THIS IS SO SAD.

2005-03-21T01:47:00.000-08:00

210305

This intoxication thrills me
I only pray it doesn't kill me

omg school is just bad, DAMN BAD! stoned like siao haha. its pretty miserable and ng soo ling HAS to be an ass. some grps dont contribute when its time to discuss, but when my back is turned they're doing all the chit-chat. CHIT CHAT HAHAHA I JUST LOVE HER. to coro w mandy and sen and jumpers came along later! mandy went to rent her comic AND. guess what :D i rented a book aharhar! cos im really damn bored. i am gna read it okay!

bleah i miss sph :( its just damn nice to be floating ard the stadium and stuff. oh and last night while on the phone with zoey, i was like trying to dab at a stupid bite which was bleeding. man the tissue was just gross by the end of the conv. hurr and we're changing places tmrw! like thanks so much im so excited. sigh. three more days to friday!

2005-03-20T04:00:00.000-08:00

200305

Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me

hello. my stomach has started hurting cos i thought of school. I AM SERIOUS, boo school sucks lah. i wna throw up just thinking of ng soo ling's hair. today's sph was pretty okay. i had to warm up with the runners though :( nevermind, its good to exercise right :) me and jays held pinkies haha. and vivien is so spastic that she caused me to violate joy. (her name makes that sentence sound FUNNY). and yeo peili damn funny lah.. she suddenly got this damn serious tone and i was shocked. turned out she only wna ask abt crooks in ny =.= BAH REMINDS OF STUPID BLOODY SCHOOL AGAIN :(

2005-03-19T04:21:00.000-08:00

190305

I've still got sand in my shoes
But I can't shake the thought of you

HAHA JIAKSAI HAWTAYES. ping makes me laugh :) and today she got waved at. hurrrs! sph is fun! get to see PEOPLE! jayce was smitten with the half jap kids! shiting chaiping shenghui jiawen shan & me squished ourselves into mandy's dad's car. haha yay tmrw we're wearing JST! and i so did not choose ORANGE as the shirt colour, -looks at PING!

bye bye BYE.

2005-03-18T04:04:00.000-08:00

180305

Honestly tell me it's over
And I'll be the first to go

veron's house today with sen eliza char genevieve sherrie & neri! met sen at spe at uh, 230. we got lost, walked in Rich Men City for more than an hr? fernhill blah, margiolouth however you spell it, stevens close, killed my feet totally! and the sun was melting me completely! so finally we took a cab and even the driver didnt knw that road! so we all looked up the directory together.

and whn we finally found the road, veron eliza and genevieve come hopping out halfway. haha so we went to food haven for food (!!) & picked up the rest too! and back to her house after tht! was like five when i finally got to see her house. and her house is just gorgeous! haha and the parrots are cute! we ate, played twister and went to the uh entertainment rm which is damn comfy by the way, and we watched this little nicky show with sexual content. okay it was nothing thaaaat dirty lah, its only pg-THIRTEEN for goodness sake.

i bet they have a room where they just roll in thousand dollar notes and giggle. this march holiday is insanely enjoyable :) a busy week full of shit stuff associated with school, but i cleverly un-busied myself by just NOT GOING AT ALL.

i cabbed home. driver was evil.

my dad's so weird, and extremely slow. was playing some song and it had alot of fucks suddenly, and i was like oops. and he just continued typing on his laptop so i thought he didnt even notice. then TEN minutes later, he suddenly remarked "a lot of vulgarities, huh?"

nytrack jiayou for sph tmrw! finally the excitement of track competitions has arrived :) this is the life of a reserve and she's lovin' it :)

2005-03-17T02:33:00.000-08:00

170305

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear

i am so moving on >:| left home at nine plus, headed for schl but decided to go town straight. tifen got us pulled out of the om thing! yay :) so met tifen & neri and we went to watch robots! its real funny :) to kbox after that til three! haha like i knw nuts whn it comes to chinese songs?! only knew jay's songs and some others! but i got really excited whn english words appear! oh and this guy there is damn cute with cool hair! we were all squealing about him and took a picture of him. oh dear. ha ha i sound OLD!

tifen left after tht, me & neri walked to far east. spent quite some time looking for a nice hair salon for her! then to taka and we had a wonderful hi-tea at pasta cafe! with banana split :D oh yes there are very pretty and sweet cards in taka! please go buy one for me! saw that PCK kid there too! he has cool hair too! and he looks loads better now!

watching some green day thing. harhar.

2005-03-16T04:01:00.000-08:00

160305

If i wrapped my world around you
Would you stay

today was fun! oh my comp is fixed by the way, but im still not bothering to sign in! i have no desire to talk to anyone =x anyway me shan sen nvr go maths lsn! and also didnt go for om mtg aftr tht! shitsss im sorry!

my sis saw ms tan trg alone at ~~spe~~ CCAB. crap

oh and this comment thing below the post is like some tagboard lah. kind of lame but looks better :) and now i rmb why i was sad! blink 182 is splitting or something. i am feeling so STABLE now can.

SIGHHHHHH

2005-03-14T23:17:00.000-08:00

150305

Come tomorrow I'll rid the sorrow
From within my heart which you plagued

got up early for om mtg, was late but anyway didnt miss anything cos only four of us turned up? bleah so spent like a few MINUTES there and left with tifen to go town. took neos walked ard. ate at pastamania and oh i have to treat her to neos the nxt time lah! hahah. we met joyce at tpy mrt.

i didnt go trg. shit lah i think im not getting cca pts this yr. oh well. im gng to train by myself ltr :) cos i feel damn fat. the holiday is flying past! and my lovely brother spoilt the pro comp so im never bothering to sign into msn again until its fixed.

2005-03-14T02:25:00.000-08:00

140305

I choose death over your touch
Fell head over heels into my grave

hello out with sen ping jays today, watched series of unfortunate events. jim carrey! ooh he's so pretty. neos and ping was craving for her old chang kee curry puff. haha mad woman. anyway..i feel sick and so does sen. and my holiday is gna be spent in unpleasant ways e.g. om and trg. if thats not disgusting enough we have extra maths lesson with ng darling. like tralala 1 2 3 lor =x

hmm i hope our jumpsprint shirt is nice! something hurts and i dont know what, momma come save me :(

w.

2005-03-12T19:51:00.002-08:00

130305

copeland/You Have My Attention

Quiet now, your voice seems miles away
Yet somehow, I hear your song resound
A little bit softer each day
And from my tired heart, a little bit farther away

I'll sing along
The whole day through
Just do your best to hear me
Its all you can do

You have my attention
Like you've had all the while
Since that first day when you made my heart smile
With loving eyes and tired sighs that flow
You have my attention
Like a shout through an empty sanctuary
Speak but a whisper

I'll hear a sermon
I'll sing along, the whole day through
Just do your best to hear me
Its all you can do
I'll sing along, the whole night through
While you sleep safely
I'll be thinking about you

You have my attention

aiyah i miss you.

my hair is getting long. and my face is like half full of hair. i feel horrible! (not because of my hair)

okay. i have like one thousand layouts-in-waiting. read angel's blog (the one from church) .. and this > if one day you are brought in front of your family, and the enemy kills your family in front of you to get some information out of you, and you get to choose who dies first, who would you choose? IS TOTALLY SAD. imagine making a decision like that.

2005-03-12T02:39:00.001-08:00

120305

I miss the way you
make me feel so cold and alone

tuition then to njc with neri to watch the uh ye chuan thing. jerry drives real slow! the performance was pretty good :) met mer and tisiana there! anyway its the holidays if you didnt realise! :) i feel empty without a doodle or a tagboard. but being tagboard-less looks so much better.

ping you better be my happy fish! you're a winner no matter what! :) so dont feel lousy okay!

i did sth i havent done in a long time. (its nothing DISGUSTING OKAY) yeah and i ended up pissing myself off hahah. sph in a week's time.

So hold me up, and you should see you're not supposed to be my enemy.

2005-03-11T18:49:00.000-08:00

120305

But you wouldn't know a good thing
If it came up and slit your throat

suddenly feel tht perfect10 plays lots of trash. everyone says i got this damn dao and pissed off face. they say my face is really black in class especially, but i also dont knw why :( im perfectly happy in class okay. no wonder teachers think im nvr paying attention.

i cant help it if i look pissed when im not smiling right :) dont think im gng trg ltr.

are we...?

nobody in particular
nobody in particular
just nobody nobody
nobody is such a fuckup word.

i'm sorry for every apology
but you'll never know how much you mean to me
until you put me in the ground
until my body is found
until the day i'm buried

you'll find me at the end of my rope
hanging on your every word
i'm finally getting the hang
of getting hung up on girls like you

don't let me let you go
don't leave me here all alone
because every night i spend without you
is like a knife held to my throat

your eyes are the only stars i want to see
your lips is the only air i want to breath
so please tell me that i'm asking for too much
because there's so much of myself that i've given up

i knew your smile would mean the death of me
but i couldn't care less, no i couldn't care less
so sweet heart kills me constantly
she takes my last breath, you took my last breath
and i'll choke on my last words
--hit the lights

i just love this song

2005-03-11T03:06:00.000-08:00

110305

just another heartache
on my list

HAHA IM BACK! obs was fun! my watch was nice :) had mag! mixed ard w gepers okay! i am so chim lah. hahah fine. yarh and xinyi and shiying happily and discouragingly shouted that i look like pulau ubin monkey to evryone. poooo :( our watch photo is nice. cleopatra pose! im like typing so slow.. oh and our instructor huh.. i dont like him hahah. hes boring and evrytime he starts talking evryones so silent and falling aslp can. his voice is so irritating hahah. i wanted serene! shes got this damn happy smile and shes alwys smiling to herself. and i just got the feeling tht she likes our instructor. hahahah.

was really feeling damn shit on the first day. cos i didnt like my watch! but they turned out to be nice nice NICE people :) me and sherm were like trying to jump into neri's grp. hahah. and i changed tent and my toot toot freaking toot instructor got me and made me talk to him for so freaking long in the middle of the night lah. hes just toot and tooter lah for goodness sake. haha.

hm three of us were sitting by the beach in the middle of the night cos it was so freaking hot. the stars there are super pretty! and the people in my tent say i slap people in the night. hahah and.. OH NG ENQI IS SUPER FUNNY CAN! HAHAHAH! i spent the entire camp laughing cos of her! was just teasing her abt being a twin! hahahah!

cos there was another pair of twins.. and we said theyre pretty. so i said its nice to be a pretty twin, ugly twins very poor thing. haha and enqi was like silent. so we stared at her and she was like "JIU SHI ZAI JIANG WO LOR, JIANG WO LOR!" HAHAHAH i laugh like shit can. and we said sth abt twins being smart.. and we were laughing abt EXCEPTIONS! haha joking only okay :) enqi is definitely not ugly and obviously not stupid!

took quite alot of pics with eug's cam on last two days. hmm got alot of mosbites. HAHAH =x got to see sen and shan only once! on the second day. we were like charging into a hug! haha! missed those two so much and i stl hvnt seen them since tues :( and i missed neri too evn tho we're both in mobile! NERI I MISSED YOU ALL DAY ONE OKAY! reeeeeally and i dont knw why also =x i have a crush on neri :)

got to knw people like enqi mag brittany eug christine hannah! mag adores her jellymonkey - ME! haha :) and hannah's damn smart okay! if not for her we'd hve died at the roadblock! and shes so cute too! haha. i think the adela person very weird! yeah. oh and we suddenly sang the 'i love you jesus deep down in my heart' song while waiting for bus! hahah. its cute. we cannonballed into the quarry! fun fun :) sadly our raft was not allwd in the water! sea expedition was damn tiring!

and i got to the top for rock climbing yay! cooking was great! okay cant rmb anything anymore.

2005-03-06T04:11:00.000-08:00

060305

oh yes. we bought this breath spray and its supsd to make you have an irish accent upon spraying. so we were talking away and spraying away and it doesn't work for nuts! BOO. maybe its not supsd to work at all. ahahah. why am i posting twice. haha anyway sen let me listen to this totally retarded song that is fking funny! hahahah! shall sing it at camp :) u-g-l-y, you aint got no alibi, YOU'RE UGLY! uh uh, you're ugly! HAH :D

2005-03-06T01:52:00.000-08:00

060305

I let it ring to see if it
Can fit the key of all my dreams

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DRAW FOR THE TRACK SHIRT LAAAAAH!
attention, its gna turn out like bloody shit. boo.

OBS! :D im gna look oh-so-funky with my tooty specs! but nevermind!

i hope it scares:
SANDFLIES
MILLIPEDES
SNAILS
ANTS
FLIES
BUGS AND ANYTHING
and most importantly..GHOSTS! :)

im sounding like a dumb spoilt brat. anywaeee! out w sen and shan today. sen cut her hair! its quite nice! tommy was there and hes looking cuter than ever lah! <3 <3! heh walked ard searching high and low for a shoebag for shan! yeah. and all we see is NIKE with that stupid irritating tick! and the design like so ugly lah. finally found nice ones at wisma :)

shan left earlier and me and sen went to eat. haha we looked like a couple, esp with her hairstyle! tsk. oh yeah ms tan still wants me to do timed trial lah! wth :( so sad lah. but anyway i dont nd to run any heats thingies for sph! YAY :) its funny how you feel left out whn you dont compete and its funnier how you feel shittier whn ure competing. i have decided i nvr wna go near any competition again :) NO HOPE MEANS NO HOPE MAN! woohoo :( haha i think pple wna slap me and my attitude alrdy.

OBS OBS! ORBS ORBS! CRABS CRABS hurhur byebye til saturday! :) miss me okay!

2005-03-05T00:32:00.000-08:00

050305

over it/waiting
Can we count on these days
to fill in our blanks?
Can we turn daydreams into our reality?
Its tough to stay,
but you just have to have a taste.
Dont speak,
theres no need to mistake identity.
We can make it worth the wait
if we give it back to the fact that we're staying

Locked out, waiting forever and a day
to find out youre afraid to make this life
a tale worth telling.
Locked out, waiting forever and a day.
No safe bet, no telling
how long youll take, but Ill wait.

Have we lost our way?
Did we stray too far from the flame?
You like to think too much,
too much about too many things.
Youve lost touch, need a name,
and every hour keeps getting late.
You think you want to rush.
The borderline just cant cut it.

Wait and see and think of me.
Someday youre gonna laugh for worrying.
When days are gold I hope I can say
for all weve been you were meant for me.

Can we turn daydreams into a reality?
Can we not speak and
shape these ideas into deeds?
Can we take these seeds
and sow a brand new history?
Can we count on these things?
Can we count on me?

Locked out, waiting forever and a day
to find out youre afraid to make this life
a tale worth telling.
Locked out, waiting forever and a day.
No safe bet, no telling.
You can keep me locked out;
Im not scared to find out.
You werent meant to spend a lifetime waiting.

2005-03-05T00:10:00.000-08:00

050305

The world has spit you out
And you don't have a reason why

AMANDA TAN IS CRACKING ME UP. the stuff she does is just hilarious lah.

haha anyway my hair is getting out of shape :( wondering whthr i shld cut tmrw! and obs. im in mobile, if what they say's right. no nice baths, no toilet (HAHA), no BEDS, and yes bugs. oh my.. im gna die there! and i dont wna be blacker than i already am. squishy fishy.. hahahah

i feel like changing layout again. must be jiaen's influence. tuition was funny lah. my tuitionmate, KAGESHI, was retained and i like her name. she likes the many wonders of my veryfullalmostunclosable pencil case.

2005-03-04T01:53:00.000-08:00

040305

So cut my wrists and black my eyes
So i can fall asleep tonight and die

hmm spent entire chem lsn in the toilet with neri cherie and kaihui. cos SURPRISE SURPRISE, there was this sudden announcement in the morning about bball supporters.. haha i was like woah, theyre gna thank us for being such a great la la dui! and in the end, its kuo wanting to see us about the forged signatures on consent forms and stuff.

so we were tryna decide whether to tell the truth or what. ahahah and we were in separate cubicles and they were throwing balls of toilet paper over lah! tsk. anyway. ms/mrs foo brought roast beef and chicken and dont knw wht else for us! yay :) oh and my amaths test is like better than my emaths lah. im so upside down

mm kuo was nice about the thing. he only recorded our names and stuff. aiyah so much for a clean record this yr! HUR :/ yeah nothing much hapnd today. i got my hip xrayed instd of going for trg (NO TIMED TRIAL HAHAHAAA). its internally bruised or some shit but nevermind, IM GNA LIVEEEE! HAR HAR HARR! history was embarrassing, im sorry for not knwing Szcehwan or sth is Sichuan and its in china. spent most of the day frantically copying hw nonstop :(

2005-03-03T00:29:00.000-08:00

030305

grow up lahhh

we broke one test tube per lab lesson today.

cause when you got what i got;
who needs air?

la
la
la :/

2005-03-02T01:43:00.000-08:00

020305

dragged myself out of bed with the motivation of elect with yick. yick do you knw how much you mean to me. ah anyway schl has been ending at 1215 for me for two days already. got out of schl to go watch bball match! i didnt evn give anyone in cls excuse form! sen shld have just ponned with me! yeah there was me neri cherie sherm gwen and xinmin! we won :) evn though assumption had like five fat columns of supporters and we had less than one column. and to think they were making all those fcking smug comments -sticks tongue out!

it was damn funny lah! haha. jayce is a fake! HAHA! me and neri went to lot 1 ltr, took neos and walked ard looking for a camping bag! some weird girl was waving enthu-ly at me and after tht she said she doesnt knw me lah! how amusing >< my stupid sis abandoned me lah! so fine, i GO HOME! :)

I've been looking in the mirror for so long
That ive come to believe my soul's on the other side
All the little pieces fallen, shatter
Shards of me, too sharp to put back together
Too small to matter
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces
If i try to touch her and i bleed

2005-03-01T02:29:00.000-08:00

010305

please dont wake me
from this high

today me and neri slept frm 1 to 230! ROCKS :D just skipped all lsns aftr lunch brk. we didnt mean to lah.. is cos we didnt wake up at 2! relay trg. mr pedro said if mandy catches me i got to run 400m right there and then. ahaha SCARY CAN, i really ran like crazy! so no 400m :)

BUT we have 400m on friday! whie like that :( ah. i think i will chicken out and just not go =x but ms tan will knooooow :(. lollipop lah. i cabbed home and sometimes i feel fucking sad and thats all.

someone shld make the birdy noise during flagraising tmrw ;) i promise not to laugh!

shanru take care of that ankle okay!
penny thanks for the sweets :)

2005-02-28T02:45:00.000-08:00

280205

shanru, there aint any opening line today! hahah. shan and mandy must be excited to see killerberg and kuku! HAHAH we put them here during el lsn lah :) so um innovative, our dumb little virtual pets. and i malu-ed myself alot today loh. >:| HAHA -looks at huiping. was soaked during trg, oh disgustingx100. but trg at the clsrms is just FUN :D i love running down the corridor haha. and evryone appreciates my track designs, yay :) angeline called. yup it was nice to finally have time to talk to her about.. the good old stuff :D

2005-02-27T22:53:00.000-08:00

adopt your own virtual pet!

2005-02-27T22:50:00.000-08:00

adopt your own virtual pet!

2005-02-27T02:47:00.000-08:00

270205

You laugh like you're really entertained
And you smile like its your favourite game

watched the dvd twice more today :D

tsk..i need someone to bitch with right now hahah. hoho guess wht, ive been doing track&field designs! love them or hate them, -points knife >:)

O:) ah lim is my fave person now, i bet ah lim dont knw who she is HAHA

looked at all my neos and i alwys look so spastic with that big-eyed-wide-grin thing hahah. but tifen loves it and she knws that perfectly well :D

today i found my calling :) arent you jealous of me, all ye fools with no direction in lyfe! heh bye.

2005-02-26T05:42:00.000-08:00

260205

Why are you trying to make fun of me,
What the fuck you think it's doing to me

no the used or tbs! pooooof :) i watched evanescence dvd thrice today! smileeeees :) watched twice then went for tuition, then to town to meet tifen! aiyoh went crazy in the neos again! hahah different sized heads -.- mhm then we walked and walked, to pacific plaza! just looked and loooooked at stuff all day :) and i came home and watched my dvd again, wah im so in love with amy lee. i have a whole wk of slacking to do :)

2005-02-25T03:20:00.000-08:00

250205

Don't make it look
so bloody burning

you only have to smile and you knock me out! i told shanru and sen sth in the history rm, and they said NOT FUNNY. so fine, not funny. then minutes later shanru started laughing like maad and she said its funny actually -.- and sen keeps making me feel like im so lame! with that EXPRESSION! shall have to take action if her condition gets worse! ahahah!

didnt train again, my shoebag is like rotting in schl for how many days already! yeah went to spe to watch netball match with neri! neri left with her cousin so i just sat ard waiting for my sis to finish her trg. her friends are um, crazy =x

:)

2005-02-24T02:19:00.000-08:00

240205

You're skin and bones,
I'm a nervous wreck

everyday i find something to be pissed off about. the whole world is just so rude :@ including me la okay

chem tchr gave us choc AND marshmallows today :D love him and hope his hair grows!

sad case, dont think we can go! so freaking sad
:(
and im so irritated. all those act slack but not slack assholes la. and after tests they'll be like wahlau, im gna fail lor, blahblahblah and when they get back their pprs and they see their PASS marks, they say wahlau, i cld have gotten THIS and THAT right, cld have gotten more marks..

im being so attitude today, haha eh prcs are dirtyminded btw! i havent taken bus home for how long. oh just now my maid's dont know what vein at the leg there BURST! omg, the blood, the blood and according to my sis, blood was splattered all ovr the kitchen. totally grossed out LORHX

2005-02-23T01:22:00.000-08:00

230205

my heart stopped beating
such a softer sin

haha im in school again. at least i aint alone this time! we had free food frm the chem guy's reception :) and we got chocolate from the chem relief tchr. today is Free Food Day. me sen shan and mandy are now interested in other cultures! hahah we were looking at castles during hist.. maths, i hate maths.

okay i was so pissed off just now! firstly my phone had no batt and so i went out of cls at like 545 to wait at the audi there. wait and wait and wait and catherine came out at almost 7 to inform me tht i had been waiting for one hr alr. and in that one hr, i had such a fantastic time getting bitten by a really retarded black yellow white screwed up fly and watching BLACK blood stream out and walking up and down trying to make the really retarded black yellow white screwed up fly go away and stop trying to suck the BLACK blood. mygod the geper must have thought i was doing aces day or something. super super angry :@

the relief chem tchr keeps saying anywaySSS, and "heres the thinggo / thingthough / thingle" its super funny. oh and i went to sac for the first time. we watched sesame street hoho :)

anyways, SHANROOO!
daaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-rin! :D

2005-02-22T05:12:00.000-08:00

220205

dont bother angel
i know exactly what goes on

for some dumb reason 314 is like all day long got extra classes. i think i wont eat tmrw lor -wails. recess still got to do weights trg. today's trg was nice! we did 5 80m! take timing :( but its okay. was in a damn bad mood starting from 630something! cuz suddenly my dad announced tht im taking the bus today cuz my stupid sister got her stupid morning jog. wahlau like morning jog what lah.

i fumed all the way to school. and continued fuming in school. yeah but the fire got put out lah. haha. we were all hiding from ms foo during lit elect! kind of lame cos obviously we were in the room haha :)

2005-02-21T01:40:00.000-08:00

210205

This poison's my intoxication
I broke the needle off in my skin

ayeeeees :) im now the only person in this whole row of clsrms. how lonely :( i have been forcing myself to study ss and chi! didnt train. gna train on wed to replace okay.

a tutor who tooted a flute tried to tutor two tooters to toot. said the two to their tutor, "is it harder to toot or to tutor two tooters to toot?" that was the product of our english lesson. assembly was funny. sense of urgency please :)

2005-02-19T23:30:00.000-08:00

200205

Thats more sweet, so delicate
It used to be this dying breed
I've got a bad feeling about this

i realised we have a stupid lit assignment. suck lah.

okay, please press ctrl+A. GOOD DOG :D

oh fine, im lame :(

haha i crawled up the stairs and just lay on the landing there and my sister started crawling towards me! omg its just freaky to have someone crawling towards you on all fours! i am so easily spooked =x

-sings- im so in love with the music in my comp.

beauty that made this heart adore you, hope of a life spent with you.

damn, im holy :)

2005-02-18T19:15:00.000-08:00

190205

I squoze so hard,
I stopped your heart from beating,
So deep, that i didnt even scream fuck me

what a funky word, Squoze! its squeezeDDD! anyway, helped my brother make his signboards for his funfair last night! haha his funky crayons are cute :) even punks need ice cream!

eh dont you dare bully her! -narrows eyes.

yay tuition is over. so funny lah, einsteinium! haha! wheres my sulphur yttrium :)

i still have 13 pretty pages of ss lah.

2005-02-18T00:32:00.000-08:00

180205

And will you tell all your friends
You've got your gun to my head

the four of us didnt go for trg. im really really too tired :( ah didnt get to see our lovely juniors =x and had maths after schl with ng ~~soo~~DARling. hurhur im gna fail a maths lah, really dont knw what the flower MISS NG is talking about. shan finally brought the kinder surprise! :) yay! i got this mouse chopped into many pieces, and put on a string! its real cute :) haha shan got some weird flintstone, sen got a hedgehog in a car, and mandy got a rocket. i was fighting to stay awake all throughout schl, i lost the battle

oh shirlyn is so mean :( she saw me and told me i looked familiar. GRR. i took taxi again :( the driver kept telling me abt chi high and stuff in chi and i was like so not relaxed lah! tao yannnnn

i hate my layout alrdy. and i have way grosser pictures :b the person who drew these pictures also drew for the used! haha so cool :) ooh yay my brother rocks haha he got me my cd. alright finally i can sleep! KORRR-PHEW!

2005-02-17T03:29:00.000-08:00

170205

My tongue is tied to
A dream of being with you

wth, i was actually excited to go for trg! and i was laughing practically throughout the day and irritating sen's underwear off.. she was trying to hold my hand under the table in lab lsn la! and its like she move damn slow? so im sitting there waiting for her to slooooowly transport my hand into hers? we were laughing like shit! hah! and im sooooper ticked off by ng soo ling! im a freaking snow white for om presentation. haha. i laughed like crazy last night thanks to .:choong huiping:.'s silly sms-es HAHAHA

trg was good, the game was so funny! :) and my hair was like .. haha. i will go tmrw :), wna see juniors. i got my sunshine back :)

2005-02-15T23:32:00.000-08:00

160205

I'll do everything,
But you're not that way,
I'm lost around you

all throughout schl i was dying to go home. and i took a cab home again. i couldnt eat lunch at all la! bleah.. this pg has been staring me in the face for pretty long. oh elective was real nice. neri and i made up really lame stuff for yick, and now i know yick is dirtyminded

i am really really sorry :( and i have myself to blame, like whats my problem. tell me im a bitch, but love me anyway?

2005-02-15T03:35:00.000-08:00

150205

Another head hangs lowly
Child is slowly taken
And the violence caused such silence
Who are we mistaken

happy bday lijie!

i feel like crying again! but its happy crying! cuz neri's valentine video for me is so damn nice la! REALLY! i want to run to her house, but yeah..training..just now..haha. BUT the point is her video! super touching! super nice! love neri so much :) cheered me up alot!

trg was bah. haha. totally dizzy la..evryone was like swirlies. hahaha and that horrible sen ah, i go toilet with her okay, so nice? and she jumped out from behind the wall at me when i was gng into the toilet and claimed that i jumped miles up into the air while screaming. nevermind, it woke me up from my giddyness :)

i didnt evn complete workout. but ms tan was nice :) haha she says im a goooooood girl now! of course ;) and me shan sen and jays were telling love story! haha omg so sweet la, if i had someone like thaaaaaat.. i want :) yea schl was wonderfully boring.. yeo peili was teasing about my ONE pimple laa! why is it that i have ONE pimple and evryone goes "HEY YOU GOT A PIMPLE HAHAHHA!" and pple (E.G. VIVIEN LEE) can walk ard with her taiwan pimples unnoticed? anw i stoned and we had major free periods! cuz we had the beeeeeg photo taking and i was at the side and so im so gna be a fat potato, haiyah.

and..ELAINE IS BALDING :D haha so funny la! um and the tchrs left the schl for their cny lunch for two hrs :) so nice. we shld have raided the staffrms :D and i realised i was such a fool :( but i wont believe you anymore! oh and ive lost my appetite again. its the same as last yr, same month some more? but the reason this time is seriously the opposite. nevermind, im gna get skinny then. hahah. okay night :)

2005-02-14T04:05:00.000-08:00

140205

Yeah you get me high,
The feeling's so low,
im knocked down with the vertigo

happy valentine's day.

neri darling, i love you! thankyou for the bigbig heart! and your card is really pretty and i mean it. i want to see the video! thanks for everything :) best friends forever okay, and heres something for you. NERISSACHIA <3

thanks lijie (for the cute felt thing!), jiaen (TOTAL BITCH towelettes and the rose! they rock), ping (kungfu hustle?), jays (the yummy cake and pretty card), shan (for the stick and letter!), tifen (for the banana earrings!), oli zhiying and der (for the small "bouquet" and the choc!), sherm (for the pretty balloons), gav (for the choc!). and uh that ryan person for the poem? not that he'd read this anyway..

and siyou for the heart and stars :) i love you..

DONT READ THE BELOW UNLESS YOU LOVE KILLJOYS.

i love allison, neri and sand. i feel like fuck. i cabbed home and the taxi driver was damn nice.. i hate people being nice to me when im about to burst into tears. he was like "ni zai xiang shen me? fight with boyfriend arh?" yeah anything..

i will remember him when im president.

i came home and cried at dinner. ended up telling my mom stuff i thought i'd never tell her. im so damn stupid to be upset and emotional over such a silly thing.

......

2005-02-13T00:47:00.000-08:00

130205

Please dont go rushing by
Stay and make my heart fly

heh, i havent studied for bio test tmrw at all! dont plan to anyway. in a big fat contradiction to the last post, i spent hours making loads and loads of cards for my dearies. for my brother's dearies, my sister's dearies and my own la! im sooo nice :) but anyway i demanded that they pay me, so im feeling kind of evil. haha. and i lost weight again? when ive been eating ten times as much? WORSHIP ME :D

2005-02-12T17:40:00.000-08:00

130205

the time with you
the time is stirred
i love you for so long

im not o-fucking-kay!

haha, thats from a song la. self-amusement :( anyway! its tomorroooow! im bloody excited! realised im very lazy haha. all my presents are like..just buy. and write in the cards. while evryone is up all night making stuff for their beloved. but its okay im sure you all dont want stuff made by me anyway :) and besides what matters more is that.. I LOVE YOU! what a happening world hurhur.

heh heh, i didnt have to go church today! my parents decided to have a vday date.

2005-02-11T23:19:00.000-08:00

120205

doesnt that make you shiver,
the way things cld have gone?

ive been worrying like shit all day! i think i have a mental illness, seriously. :( haiyah i HATE this wkend, monday please :)

i downloaded alot of songs. im such a pirate :) and im not in the mood for stupid, sarcastic jokes today, okay.

HAHA I AM SO RELIEVED NOW.

2005-02-11T00:52:00.000-08:00

110205

everywhere i go, you know
il take you with me sweet darling

me shan and mandy were supsd to meet at 9. and i thought i woke up late, but seems that those two woke up half an hr later than me. and shan had to breakfast w her momma and so i went to mandy's hse first! we changed clothes and went back to bishan. and shan was still half an hr late -growl-. and we abandoned trg :D

we went to town. and i changed back into my shirt and fbts. SO COMFORTABLE MAN -looks at shan. looked at bags and all that. ooh we saw a rolls royce! so big!! took neos! so sparkly :) from heeren to cine back to heeren then to wisma. i settled my veryimpt vday stuff. SARAH MUST RMB TO COLLECT SOMETHING IN WISMA ON MONDAY. my own reminder :p hmm then THE xinfu and edmund came and i got my dcp shirt! thankyou!

sherrie called! she was in town too! and..hmm! yeah and we left for citylink mall! finally decided on the adidas bag! :) yay. but only me and shan bought. im gna model it for the mirror later hurhur. back to bishan. the whole time i was aching like siao la, cuz i was carrying so many bags in my hand! looked like i went for some shopping spree! we walked for like 8 hrs man. hoho. say its you, say it say it :(

its my mum's bday today! i made a card for her, and she was so fucking sarcastic when i gave it to her.

2005-02-10T05:38:00.000-08:00

100205

i almost loved you
i almost wished you loved me too

il leave the angry parts to later :( why does it have to be me all the time? why not YOU?

anyway. lijia is starting a blog, and he invites all of you to go play with it. i thought he was funny. fridaaaaaaaaay! i daoed most of my world today. i feel fucking stressed! haha!

2005-02-10T03:50:00.000-08:00

100205

as years go by
i race the clock with you
but if you died right now
you know that id die too

you remind me of the times
when i knew who i was
but still the second hand will catch us
like it always does

until the day i die
i'll spill my heart for you

should i bite my tongue?
until blood soaks my shirt
we'll never fall apart
tell me why this hurts so much

my hands are at your throat
and i think i hate you
but still we'll say, "remember when"
just like we always do

until the day i die
i'll spill my heart for you

my hands are at your throat
and i think i hate you
we made the same mistakes

do you need this as bad as i do?

haHA i hate my blog :D

2005-02-09T06:37:00.000-08:00

090205

and not to pull your halo down
around your neck and tug you to the ground

neri, ive got sth nice for you on vday ;)

anyway we brought one of the dogs to bai nian! fun :) evryone has so much money! but our relatives are all poor, so i will not ask for much and i will love them all the same :) i ate and i ate and i ate. my aunt showd me this funny msg ;) and um my cousins are shuai! HAHA! yeah we took a cousinsONLY photo. i passed someone's house twice..bye.

2005-02-08T01:58:00.000-08:00

080205

loves not always black and white
havent i always loved you?

hail the lion. i didnt go back to cedar! i owe clara a treat now :( joyce was super funny! she pretended to be a av club girl so she cld take a pic! the co performance was nice :) we took alot of pics w lixuan's cam! some people so zi lian laa! haha! hmm stayed in canteen w some MORONIC stmarg girl and sen. sen and i have a special greeting now :D WAIT AND SEE!

then me and sen went to kap! aiyah met alot of pple. and we went back to schl -.- like totally nothing to do tday! im waiting for my stupid money :( and we went to j8 aftr tht haha. wntd to watch constantine..but timing is so stupid so we bought stuff! i have sherm's present! SHERM I ROCK :)

and my sis came so i was sort of rich agaaaain :) hmm and my bro was in j8 too laa. haha family reunion =x sent sen to bus stop and sis and me went to kovan. im damn tired..and im feeling mean and bad and mean and baaaaaaaad! :( oh yes i have a pimple :p I CANT GO REUNION DINNER LIAOOOO! HAHHA i was like moaning abt it evrywhre =x yellowcard sounds like shit live haha.

goodness. whats with you?

2005-02-07T02:48:00.000-08:00

070205

why dont we hit restart
and pause at all our favourite parts

tday i went orch w neri and tifen! shirlyn they all went too! hmmm.. we took neos and walked all ovr heeren! i bought PART ONE of the present! its a beeeeeeg part one! haha. and i have to give so many presents on vday (MONEY BYEBYEBYEBYE). its practically a birthday, just not mine grr. tifen got her slippers! i want my earrings! i want my spermo (LEE XINFU) and my shirt from dcp!! MY SHIRRRRT! IM HINTING, IM HINTING AHHAHAHAHA

then we went cine. and THEY ate, I smelt. HAH. walked summore, and tifen went home and me and neri went to dhoby ghaut for a slooooow walk. i think the "PEOPLE! dont walk on the escalator!" is funny hahaha :D yup then i went home and i dont see whts so funny abt a lion!

2005-02-06T02:49:00.000-08:00

060205

you saw me mourning my love for you
and you touched my hand
i knew you loved me then

hello im playing the dumbest thing on earth? habbohotel i wna bobba you HAHAHA okayokay church was boring bugis was boring evrythg was boring :) but yeah i got vday stuff. i need money pls if you want a present then give me money HAHAHA. cant wait for tmrw to be over :D then its holeeeeday!

2005-02-05T04:46:00.000-08:00

050205

i held the pieces of my soul
i was shattered,
and i needed you to make me whole

hello, tifen is at my hse now! it is eight forty five! im pooped :p haha anyway tday was kind of busy. had maths w ngsooling in the morn. super sian but yeah, i enriched my brain. then went home, went tuition, then to far east w sen mandy! we met sherrie there and so we took neos and bought presents and stuff. it was fun :) then mandy cut her hair! its stl like the same to me. haha.

mm. then i went to meet tifen at tpy. waited one hr! HAHA. i rock yeah! and was watching the lovebites 2005. thre was this pretty gd band playing! woohoo :D ohyeah! saw clara and vicki! and they actly recognise me! but anw we daoed each other. but now online we realise we all knew it was each other like HAH. i may be gng back to cedar for the first time since sec 1 :) clara likes my hair :D -yawns- i think this yr's vday is gna be so =x la, esp since its on a monday and schl ends at three! cny wk is here!

ahh. just sent tifen to the bus stop and waitd w her :) we were laughing abt threesomes and seeing ur husband/maid in bed. like HMM HMM HMM :p and i thought it was so nice and romantic to be walking at night.. :)

2005-02-04T03:18:00.000-08:00

040205

il believe all your lies
just pretend you love me
make believe close your eyes
il be anything for you

MONDAY TUESDAY *HAPPY DAY*, WEDNESDAY THURSDAY *HAPPY DAY*, THURSDAY FRIDAY *HAPPY DAY*, SATURDAY BLAHBLAHBLAH, LALALALAAA! =x haha im so happy with myself :) mmm just got home frm trg! nowadays evryone go home so early, so i got to sit ard waiting for so long! :( we ran 300m today! i was totally acidic =x and shouted tht it was fucking shit when i passed the duno whos at the duno whats HAHA. THAT huiping was yapping abt her "im a sprinter girl" hahaha! rmb to chnge ur nick alright :D

yeah, we also ran relay! pretty fun! pong dropped her baton so i threw it ovr to dee! pro :D anw i nvr knew juniors are so cute! ahh just like us huh! HAHA! marie say my hair like strawberry, eat me eat me! ms tan likes my hair okay! love ms tan man :p hmm ms tan was telling the jnrs all the stories abt us whn the rest went home and it was just me and the juniors.

hurhurrr, sen nvr go schl! she called me whn i was eating a sticky bun which chitra gave us! and she was in the toilet, haha so sick =x hurm hurm im seeing ng soo ling tmrw, aint i lucky! shes a big permed eyesore haha oh my dad is so funny!

mama : all these kids nowadays, so materialistic, so worldly, so *forgot what!*
dad : -MUMBLES- ya..these kids..
mama : look at number two (me), now her stupid sis is following in her footsteps!!!
dad : ya..that girl..
mama : everything must look good! look chio! look cool! in my time... we just wear our bata shoes and nobody cares about looks!!!!
dad : ya..these kids..so..

AND IT WENT ON LIKE THAT HAHAHAHA i thought it was funny :p im still high abt my hair haha =x but i miss my san ba bucks. bah. cny! :D oh yes me and shan were gazing at some pple during trg haha. we're so saaaaad :( anyway, im just happy abt track now :)

2005-02-03T03:50:00.000-08:00

030205

and if i sleep just to dream of you
il wake without you there

HELLO MY HAIR IS SO CHIO NOW CAN XD love love love love it! whee :D health check then me sherm ping mama cabbed to far east and we went to cut cut cut! yay yay yay :p mhm. but its stl long, so i got to tie up i guess. ah okay we neo-ed! preeety :D and TOMMY (the guy who cut my hair) is shuai haha, and hes got nice smelling hands :) yeah. i mrt-ed hm w sherrrmmmmy! :) dont you love my hair? YOU DO! :)

i lost 2 kg evn tho i ate 2 times as much! i shld eat more, then mb il lose weight. haha im high! ohyeah sen went home, so i skipped half of chi :D shit got maths test tmrw! haha, im gna study! bye! :)

2005-02-02T01:13:00.000-08:00

020205

and you broke every heart
thinking every heart mends

we were laughing abt uh kindergarten performances during lunch tday :p i am a ferocious lion can! rooooar! haha so funny! it seems tht our kindergarten days were so cute! :) i have nothing to say my dears! haha i feel slappable! ooh i have been eating alot! die! gna be a big fat roly poly :( so i shall get married now thn i dont nd to care alr :D

ohyes, we had elect tday! -grins. yick made me read her silly GREY poem hurhur, and we played 'just a minute' uh i think i got it wrong. but it was great as usual! :) OH YAH, i saw this damn cute guy on teeeveeee last night! so mesmerizing! AHH, i felt like crying cuz he sang w such passion! and his eyes! -faints-

2005-02-01T03:03:00.000-08:00

010205

so you stole my heart
and left me a ransom letter

cheesy =x yo man, yo. tday was fun! me sen and tifen were singing during lunch brk! we sang boulevard of broken dreams like..um thrice? bcuz we felt good whn we shouted FUCKED UP :D haha super funny, and we are soooo intune! -nodnodnod :p i just want yooooo and yoooour beauuutiful soooooul -.- ahh pe was rubbish, still dont like seeing yeo peili laaaa :/ cant wait for the next module. grace ruffled my FACE!

and i still dont knw wht to do w my hair on thurs haha :( mm me and neri were laughing damn loudly from the bus stop all the way to rtc, cuz of her vomitting story! like walkwalkwalkwalkVOMITwalkwalkwalkwalk? HAHAHA :D its veron's bday tmrw!

2005-01-31T03:45:00.000-08:00

310105

and im addicted to your punishment
and youre the master
and i am waiting for disaster

happy bday mama! must put the heart's hands around you and imagine its me hugging you! :D

okay uh tday. schl was bloody tiring, i almost fell aslp during hist =x yeah i passed hist test! -jumps. hur and poor shan had sore eyes and left schl at seven ten. HAHA. like come for what la, silly girl! had to rush off for trg ltr, i hate this routine! :/ angeline come collect postcard frm me! im lazy :p

and we took 852 agn and uh we had another embarrassing incident. yes the bus jerked and pong shiting and dee rolled to the other side + screamed :p i gave a yelp only hor. HAHA it was so funny la! same as the other time whn we took 852 too and fell down. yeah, 852 is seriously jinxed! i told you i told you! :p

trg was okay. me sen mandy had to run freaking far? like 300m! times four! i pushed myself okay! :) so proud of myself, haha. my sweat was freezing cold and i dont knw why! felt like an ice cube walking in the desert =x and walked back w dee agn! yup. we saw rays of light coming out frm the sky and we stood there feeling dizzy and went like HEAVEN. haha :D

but whn we got back to the cafeteria, disaster struck! (this aint a compo =x) i feel so upset! shiting's entire bag got stolen?! and dee's hp!! omg la, if it were me i'd be cursing and screaming like crazy! but they were pretty calm :p ahwell. so poor thing la! grr whoever the fucker is, i hope your -cough- evaporates :)

im scared of macritchie alr! :( and i cant wait to cut hair! AHH, but im kind of scared! :( oh yeah i went to meet my brother cuz he was hving cross ctry at mac too, grr pple probly thought i was his girlfriend please. so disgusting. and he showed me to his friends like a exhibition HURRR =x and some orchid~~fuck~~park guys kept being irritating. I DREAD TMRW :/

2005-01-29T22:55:00.000-08:00

300105

feel stupid blogging on a sunday. and i think im falling s i c k

Goodnight, sleep tight
No more tears
In the morning
I'll be here
And when we say goodnight
Dry your eyes
Because we said goodnight
And not goodbye
We said goodnight
And not goodbye
-evanescence

2005-01-29T04:49:00.000-08:00

290104

you make evrything alright
you fall on me for anything you like

we took timings on friday. i fucked it up indeed :) HUR. GRRRRRRR. i have been growling these days. jiachin says she found a girl who looks like me. (she finds the girl pretty) EQUALS. hahah. bu yao lian me. and sandyrella gave me a hug aww. im sour tht we didnt get to watch the dance lor. haha anw had track cip tday it was great :) we got free shirt free nvrending supply of drinks free brkfast and lunch. there were some acjc pple and shan was so turned off by a Mole?! wth haha MAMEE NOODLES STICKER WOMAN!

yeah. me and sen were Marshalls -.- and we got a free car ride all ard sentosa cuz the chio-woman thought we were nded somewhre else. then uh we poked straws and all tht stuff. i took pictures of all the runners, haha for the attitude-woman la. mhm. it was bloody hot!

and in the end we had so much left over drinks, so we started a water fight -.- haha! horrible debra and marie splash me grr :/ poor shan was drenched! :) was damn fun la! we offered some of the leftovrs to pple on the beach and stuff. and we got loads of balloons frm the spongebob squarepants promo thing! its so cute! took pic w the silly elephant! bet the person in the elephant was sniggering inside, looking at this bunch of idiotic girls with millions of balloons charging twrds him haha.

WE GOT BALLOONS OKAY. so nice :D and took pic w the damn long line of balloons and the sand sculpture thing! it reaches way up into the sky! yay :D mm we all gave our balloons to lil kids in the end! so sweet rht! :) hooi wen's nice! i went ikea. :)

2005-01-27T05:32:00.000-08:00

270105

you are my miracle drug :)
im back to blog cuz im happy! my brother bought U2's cd, hm okay i can tell hes in love :D (so is limshanru) shes so accidentally in love in the toilet :) shh. suddenly cant wait for sat's cip! hur, actly only looking fowrd to neo-ing aftr tht :p

2005-01-27T01:02:00.000-08:00

270105

he dont knw anything about her
hes too stoned

uh im real irritated ALL DAY LONG :( cant she see the joke isnt funny after shes been repeating it for weeks. but a part of tday was nice :) tmrws gna be fucked up, i just knw it, think we're gna take timings, im gna fuck it all up, and me and sen are in some shit haha. mama is so nice :) imma get you a nice present! :) oh elective was great as usual. i supsdly got a new dog last wk =x yick told us if we wna shoplift pls wear a liondance mask first LIKE HAHAHA. she tried to make me tell her my dirty joke, and we played this damn hilarious game! the prcs probly wna smack us :D

yay i love T.A.T.U? do you love T.A.T.U? yes you do :)

2005-01-26T01:39:00.000-08:00

260105

when youre feeling low
hypodermic's where you go
when youre with yourself
you wish you could be someone else

grr pissed i still cant see my tagboard. haha tday mama and i were discussing someone.. and i really cant change my impression of her la! i seriously tried to think of her as a nice nice friend, but she tried to put her arms ard me! HAHA so i couldnt help looking real disgusted and i ducked, damnit im so mean! i guess the kind part of me will soon emerge and overlook her need to get real close whn she talks to you :) right mama? :D

2005-01-25T03:06:00.000-08:00

250105

are you searching for words that you cant find
trying to hide your emotions but eyes dont lie
guess theres no easy way to say goodbye

ALRIGHT. IM REPLYING TAGS NOW (:
sherm > HELLO YOU. haha thanks for helping me copy out my tags so i can finally reply xP muack! i dont make fiends! i make..LALAS! LALA LOVES YOU! :D
zhiying > you make me wanna CHACHA! HAHA.
sand > hello dear :)
mama > your daughter loves you, you knw? :) haha ohwell like mother like daughter right? HEH.
jiaen > haha jiaen ME TOO! like YEAH. ah i love all these science-failers. :D
xf > haha dont tell me you got time to go on mondaytuesday wednesdaythursday friday? its normal :)
edmund > CHEM ROCKS AND BALLOONS ARENT CHILDISH! FULLSTOP. -confiscates your eraser.
peizhi > HELLO :)
sherrie > BABY i miss you! wna hear your incessant talking and feel your smooth skin and see your CHIOBU FACE! haha! yes see me soon OKAY. SEE ME SOON. :)

haha that was rather sian. i thought tagboard has been down for three days. i cant see my tagboard :(
hello :) i was totally dead whn i got to schl. haha me sen shan and mandy just collapsed in cls. mm yeah that naughty phoebe and neri stole my bottle! and i only found it like uh lunch brk? haha! sen left a surprise in my jacket agn! there was a girl talking to her box on the swing HAHA real funny :p

mama passed me a note during chem! haha and i NOTICED! haha was trying not to laugh whn mdm tan looked at me. OH me and sen were gna change then we were saying tht sure see ____ then we came up the stairs AND. we saw! omg so freaky la! its like we were just say-say only? haha.

trg was nice cuz the acs kiddies 'booked' the track so we ran on the grass :D and we were playing w the tennis balls! so fun :D all the pretty balls in the air hahah.

2005-01-24T03:25:00.000-08:00

240105

you speak of me time stands still
but each time you walk right on by

i was so happy last night, i ran to my rm and wiped the dust off the guitar :) derniese gave me a tube of sweets or sth. havent opened. haha. my hip is dropping off la i wna die! but i like macritchie trg, seriously..at least its not as scary as running on the track and taking timings and what what what. what hapnd tday? i cant rmb. only rmb mr kuo was shouting into the mike and acting vulgar. like omg so cool he says 'heck'! SO FUNKAYYYYE! oh pe sucked i had to run the hurdles like 4 times?! that tan tifen! hi-5 me while hurdling and HAHAHA-ing all the way! :D

me and dee jogged out with our new trg plan! :D haha! and the four sprinters had a nice talk aftr trg whn evryone left :) neri darl cheer up okay! muack!

2005-01-23T01:54:00.000-08:00

230105

You're my distance, destination of choice
I'd give anything just to hear your voice
I could have passed you on the street without saying a word
Most times, I miss the voice that goes unheard

What If I missed you, you got caught in the sun
What If I did something never to be undone

People everywhere how could I be sure
If it's you that I have been looking for
What would it take for me to be comfortable
With you, with me you're the chosen one

What If I missed you, you got caught in the sun
What If I did something never to be undone

You are there for me this I hope and pray
You are there for me I wont be to late

What If I missed you, you got caught in the sun
What If I did something never to be undone

Will you wait for me or will I be too late this time
You are there for me this I hope and pray :)

course of nature/caught in the sun

i went running! so guai right? :) but i practically did nothing. my sis and i were singing mockingbird to a cat and it ran away :( heh. we're having maggi mee with sparkling juice, a bit hmmm-ish huh. dyou knw cinderella is censored! haha!

2005-01-21T23:33:00.000-08:00

220105

i know shes a super lady
im weak and ive gone hazy

i had a happy ending to a happy day :) i went swimming this morn. was reciting history in the toilet haha. just got home frm tuition, was bored to tears. the simpsons is damn funny :D hmm yay i realised i have one more day to sleep! check out FIENDster, cute!

i HATE chem. its like i feel so happy abt paying attention in cls and i think im doing fine but actly i knw peanuts. hmm anyway i went to look at millions of pgs of balloons :) so pretty okay. and its NOT childish.

2005-01-21T03:19:00.000-08:00

210105

OVER THE SIDEWALKS

omg that song is melting my little heart that is alrd beating freaking fast! GOSH. im so crazy tday, alright lets see. met sen and neri in town at 11. so we went heeren to take neos :D walked ard, to far east and took neos agn! then we met shirlyn danhong and co and we took pics w my digicam! yijing crush me wor :D

mmhm then neri went for her prjwrk and me and sen went to kap to meet yuzhen minting and tifen sweeties for our prjwrk! rocks la we didnt do anything much. then me tifen and yuzhen went to town AGAIN! tifen was like telling a whole damn load of funny stories, i laughed til my stomach hurts like shit! omg the things she does la, really cracked us up!!

thn we went heeren to take neos. damn crowded and we were making alot of noise! laugh and laugh. LET ME TELL YOU ABT THE NEOS. IT SUCKS HAHAHAHA. we were laughing in evry single one! either one of us sure disappear in the neos la! and its really really ugly! and tifen stl wna scan can!! hahaha! we made so much noise and evryone outside was quite appalled. damn embarrassed whn we came out :/ hahaha. what farting story and evrythg! met sherm char and shiying! loved the boob jokes. and tifen kept announcing tht i got no boobs! fine :( haha! tifen _____ during table tennis! SHHH :) and she pressed the bell in the bus and quickly announced "i press one." LIKE ITS ANYTHING TO BE PROUD OF! hahahah so funny la!

ohyeah we met veron! and we boo-ed her and she looked REALLY FUNNY! haha! then uh. we took neos w sherm char and shiying! yup. wasted alot of time waiting la. mm then i BRISKWALKED with tifen dearie back to wisma. she walks super fast can! wow :) went to meet neri and shirlyn! SHIRLYN IS SO PERVERT! after meeting her i now knw the true meaning of pervert :D hug my arm until so painfuL! gosh neri i pity you! HAHA!

and she pierced her ears for seventyfive bucks la. super rich. "i only got hundred fifty bucks". ONLY. :( and she squeezed my hand while getting her ears pierced. OW LA! and i took quite alot of pics of her pained face! so cute! hahah :D we walked ard a while then all went to take mrt. that shirlyn kept singing to sing away her pain?? like wth! haha. missed the dhoby ghaut stop..LOL. we all went to the purple line! nice :) for once i got companions. i laughed like so much haha. I LOVE TODAY :) evry hari raya is tifrah laughing day! YAY :D

watching green day mv now haha DAMN NICE. why you all dont like his eyes, very sexy whut :/

2005-01-20T17:22:00.000-08:00

210105

im young and im hopeless
im lost and i know this
going nowhre fast thats what they say

i had a movie dream! was really a movie! i must be the first person in history to dream up an entire script haha =x and whn they ask where how i got such fantastic ideas, i say in my dreams LOL.

must be that knock on the head, the genius in me is finally revealed :D anyway i woke up at 830 to try calling in for the 200bucks cd hamper thing on power98, duh i cant :) sitting here listening to 99 red balloons til ten thirty haha.

i finally got my collision course! i want story of the yr's cd :(

2005-01-20T01:15:00.000-08:00

200105

way up high, or down low
i'll be with you for all of time

first, OW :( just now, i was walking out of my rm, and so i opened the door halfway. then i looked to the left and looked in the mirror. and i turned back to the right and wntd to walk out of the rm but instd i bashed the left side of my face right into the door. omg i wntd to cry haha HURTS LIKE SHIT AND PANGSAI AND EVRYTHG :( i feel stupidly stupid :/ now its swollen la! -cries- kiss it away darling! :(

tday i was pretty irritated. yay sen and veron and me all agree on miss gross :D i like ron tok. hes bimbo :) chua mei hong stole my 5bucks la, sorry neri :( tifen made me laugh so much during prj wrk! haha! wna spank her!

minting just called me :) give me new ears! hahah, i cant hear for nuts lo! IM DEAF :( and i have a sudden obsession with balloons :) very cute! haha! EH. im talking to penny! haha such a cute name right :) and she says we were so noisy whn playing soccer but so quiet during trg! brian mcfadden is so ugly!

2005-01-18T23:46:00.000-08:00

190105

been wondering, when im gone
and you need love,
who'll light the shadows on yr face?

cheer up neri :) TODAY im dedicating my blog to elective!! HAHAHA OMG I LOVE ELECT SOO MUCH AND IM GETTING HIGH NOW JUST THINKING OF IT!! OH MY GOD. HAHAH. okay me shan mandy neri shiting all in the same elect can? GUESS WHAT IT IS! ITS...ENGLISH FOR EFFECTIVE COMMUNICATION!! with who? MADAM..YICK-SEEEEERRR-WEEEEE-YEEEE-NG! haha i duno why im so inlove with elect =x must be yick baby :)

actly i wntd med studies one loh, but they threw me into eec so might as well have fun :) yick was like "SARAH? why are you in my cls? i dont want you in my cls!" eh im hurt loh ://// and im monitress HAHAH! neri is 313clsrep! you knw wht, i didnt stop smiling and laughing thruout the entire one hr :) man i miss 845-945.

the prc was digging her nose! so me and neri were like HAHAHA! damn funny. and chen bingying is NICE! i think shes pretty. i waved to her three times tday! we did some dumb exercise. i read straits times evry single morning HELL YEAH :D tifen and jaslin joined us cuz jailani kicked em out!

yick's actions really cracked us up haha. wna squeeeeze her :) and we did this word exercise, so there was this qn 'a passenger who offers the driver unsolicited advice', and ure supsd to guess the word. and jaslin went 'ASSHOLE' HAHAH OMG. yick either didnt hear or pretended not to! real funny :)

i love elective so much! im so sad now, cuz elect is far far away! HAHA :) aiyah. i crapped so much abt elect haha. the rest of the day was fking sian. iwtlyiteatyilu :'( hur okay its pointless being upset abt stuff you'll nvr find an answer to, yes stuff just like you :| ana johnsson's song is making me sad. me and neri cabbed home, and i stole the silvercab :)

2005-01-18T02:33:00.000-08:00

180105

SMACK NERI! haha. shes hyper again..cuz of me :) my ass hurts. chitra says i look naughty :( we ate the candy apple! i think its a waste of money. omg i got electrocuted! hahaha, -runs to hospital

as i look out outside
i can see the rain about to start
the air is damp but warm
and i remember how you used to feel

and i see your face
my cold reflection scares me at this hour
how i wish i could sleep
if only i could slow my mind a bit

then when i see you i forget the pain
and melt away with you
only a day is passed and
i cant help but feel that ive lost you

your room confines my thought
and then my worries drift when im with you
but i dont want to live
i never know just when we'll meet again

what is it that feeds this
havent i had enough of this today
i really dont need this
havent i had enough of this today

then i sit at home
my walls reflect how my life is so bleak
and i feel so alone
i break down and call you cuz im weak

if i can see what you are
if i could blow away my clouded sight
realize you made me a fool
if i mean nothing what else can i say

ive lost you

2005-01-17T02:48:00.000-08:00

170105

why dont you and i?
IF YOUR BIRTHDAYS IN JANUARY TELL ME (:

yay i found my junior! :) she complimented me! SUCH GOOD TASTE SHE HAS, YES? hahah i want to hug her! shes the first sec one i know =x other than allison's sister. me and ping are lala-ing now. heh. we made human chain during recess and uh made a big fool of ourselves :D like trapped a lil sec one? sorry sec one :) and for lit quiz me phoebe and sen were like EH COPY KAY. and the tchr went orbiting ard our table the entire time. i think she heard :( mac trg. rocks :) really rocks :) really really rocks :) saw melvin at the bus stop. he used to stay potong pasir too! YO. neri lets hold hands all day on vday :)

2005-01-16T01:46:00.000-08:00

160105

pictures and photographs
memories and windows
goodbyes and epitaphs
heartbeats and hellos

hello! :) i just talked to zoey on the phone! heh. somebody please kick me and tell me to go do my lit! i didnt evn bring home the bk, :/ we got cable tv tday! :) and my brother's phone got camera la. i held my sister's hand in bugis, so DAJIE-ish right :) i'd scream if i ever held YOUR hand.

school again :(

2005-01-14T23:27:00.000-08:00

150105

so are you leaving me here
with a taste of the end ?

happy bday shuning!
i had tuition just now, it was hard to stay awake thought i slept really early last night :) but it was okay la, its all sec2 stuff haha. only bad thing was the stupid fan behind me blowing dust all over my hair i bet. i just did the sprinter thing, i think its gna be real nice! :) ...bye.

2005-01-14T02:32:00.000-08:00

140105

there's a beautiful sky tonight
when if you were by my side
we could share this but you're gone
so come at me with your moon
and burn me in the stars
cause nothing matters anymore

if i could only see you now
for about an hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
what he's got that i don't have?
is it his brown eyes?

i know blue eyes get boring but
i'll wear dark glasses all the time
and hey if you want me to
i'll take a knife to
my own bright eyes

if i could only see you now
for about and hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
what he's got that i dont have?
is it his brown eyes?
well i'll give you a thousand reasons
that tonight you should grant me this one wish

like the one year
of my life that i gave to you
and now you put me
through hell
you break me up yeah-ha
whoa-oa i should hate you
but i can't replace you in my heart
why am i so pathetic?
don't get it why you won't return my calls

can't you look at me once
and please if you've got a minute
enjoy this lonely sky with me
it'll swallow us whole
if we only let it

if i could only see you now
for about an hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
what he's got that i dont have?
is it his brown eyes?
well i'll give you a thousand reasons
that tonight you should grant me this one wish

like the one year
of my life that i gave to you
now you put me through hell
you break me up, yeah
the sky's going to eat us
then i'd like to be digested into
one million pieces with you
i'd love to be scattered
to hell with you
to hell with you
to hell with you

2005-01-14T02:21:00.000-08:00

140105

shan's hair is perfectly normal and nice! :) hist tchr let us listen to some raH raH rasputin thing. its cute. im kind of sick of seeing tee and teo cuz they look so short and alike haha =x we talked to sherrie practically all recess? god, i miss her so much. but when i see her i feel like i duno which thing to scream abt. sigh. our el presentation was funny! haha!

i have chem tuition tmrw! HUR! so evry friday i got to lug the chem tb home! SUCKS :/ oh uh i ponned trg tday :( im not ponning anym! I PROMISE :) im trying to calculate how many i have to go for that equals to 80percent harhar, alright. im damn tired. punished myself by walking home instd of changing bus =x i keep listening to the same song, haha :/ oh there was spot check tday!

i had my hopes up for nothing.

2005-01-13T01:49:00.000-08:00

130105

go on ahead,and let it fade away
no looking back,you know the past wont stay

im in vietnam now. (not) i am a tai tai!! meanie jasmine keeps cursing my love life!! ohno! hahah. IM GETTING MARRIED FIRST AND THATS THAT. :D SOMEONE left a big 'helloh :D <3' on my table. i really like our tchrs! :) theyre NICE compared to last yr. sand i saw your msg on the whiteboard! you have nice handwriting :)

went to coro w neri sen jays after schl for obs talk by Miss Jayce Yong. yeah and uh im scared of the ghosts! but i knw neri darling will do all she can to protect me! cuz i still have to get married, so i cant die yet. :) and we were laughing like idiots so LOUDLY and my stomach hurt like mad lah! we were rolling ard and all that and evrytime we manage to stop laughing we start again!!

KAYAKING + _____ = SEA CURRENT CANT MOVE THE KAYAK AND KAYAK IS UDNERWATER WHILE ____ + _____ IS STILL ROWING hahahah omg, was damn funny! (i felt so mean heh) haha i think i'd die laughing whn we go kayaking! and the boat will capsize and flip over and turn one round in a pool of shit! hahah. im talking rubbish :)

i cant wait to see shanru tmrw!! ;) and american idol is starting this wk! okay, tv time :) -~~bimbo~~BABE wave at tifen :D

you said you always wanted someone to tell you it's ok.

2005-01-11T15:03:00.000-08:00

120105

its you and me
we cld get out of here
jump in and go
and we cld drive for yrs

im in schl now! its like 705 only =.= i took a pic with sand the BIRTHDAY GIRL just now! :D and she better like my gingerbread mEEEn! hahah :) HAPPY BDAY SAND!! click HERE SANDY!

anyway. i got a nanyang bra today! -jumps and shouts, oh yes its so preeeetty! chua mei hong rocks! she plucked me out of mass dance. i gave her some cock story abt how my maid ran away and all tht during our really slow-walk to the staff rm. and she just went "DONT YOU KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR UNDERWEAR?!" hahah ohmygod please she acted like i didnt wear a bra! this is sounding kind of sick and im disgusted.

then mr kuo scolded me for not being serious during mass dance :( ugh like two scoldings in a row. mm. :)

2005-01-11T04:08:00.000-08:00

110105

i deleted evrything. so if you didnt see you missed a good show. im more sad than angry and i dont knw why he did that. but i wont say bad words cuz of him. i love hanwei leh. no i dont. but he sent me a nice song when im feeling so sick of everything. i dont feel like gng to sch feeling like a wreck. but its sandy's bday and im gng so i can give her present. im stuck w cls contact list lah. i obviously have to stay up tonight? i feel horribly emotional :(

Summertime, summertime
brought me back to thinking you were mine all those times.
We laid it down and left it all behind, we were blind.

Oh, the summertime.
We could ride, we could ride.
Take my hand and watch the world go by.
Laugh or cry, well we need to try, get off the line, time to fly.

2005-01-10T03:32:00.000-08:00

100105

i dont believe that anybody
feels the way i do about you now

fat bitch.

im so tired. :( trg sucked, why sprinters got to run further?? there was this chirping thing and uh me sen dee were looking at it and dee made this low noise w her bottle and i thot it was the animal coming to attack me so i screamed like crazy. dee laughed for 376764543580 mins lah. haha.

2005-01-09T01:52:00.000-08:00

090105

thanks to alf im watching a bunch of gays! haha. SO CHIO ><

one min of silence now. haha. im silent. hmm yay my family is back! i finished reading my lit bk! :D (and im still awake)

tifen just msged. no tifen, im not happy abt wht you msged me! HAHA. im HUNGRY! :(

2005-01-08T23:10:00.000-08:00

090105

when it rains
it pours and opens doors
and floods the floors we thought
would always keep us safe and dry
and in the midst of sailing ships
we sink our lips
into the ones we love
that have to say goodbye

and as i float along this ocean
i can feel you like a notion
that wont seem to let me go

and every word i didnt say
that caught up in some busy day
and every dance on the kitchen floor
we didnt have before
and every sunset that we'll miss
i'll wrap them all up in a kiss
and pick you up in
all of this when i sail away

and as i float along this ocean
i can feel you like a notion
that i hope will never leave

whether i am up or down or in
or out or just plane overhead
instead it just feels
like it is impossible to fly
but with you i can spread my wings
to see me over everything
that life may send me
when i am hoping it wont pass me by

and when i feel like there
is no one that will ever know me
there you are to show me

cause when i look to the sky
something tells me youre here with me
and you make everything alright
and when i feel like im lost
something tells me you're here with me
and i can always find
my way when you are here
train/when i look to the sky :(

2005-01-07T21:11:00.000-08:00

080105

today is where your book begins
the rest is still unwritten

welcome to saturday! it feels so good to sleep again! i purposely set my alarm at 530 so i could get woken up and think, ITS SATURDAY, I CAN IGNORE THE ALARM!! and i went back to sleep. fine, im really dumb but the feeling was wonderful haha :) suddenly i want tuition, haha look at me! im a nerd! being studious isnt that bad la. hmm anyway are trackers that noisy! evryone says so =x

do i sound happy, cos im trying to be :) im trying to write a chi compo but i dont knw how to say tsunami in chineseeeeee! and thats like what we're sup to write about! HAHA! bah :/ evrytime i switch on the radio i hear the LALA song! argh, its like a stupid jungle song haha

oh haha i went to geraldines blog and she linked me as 'sarah, the un-yf-er' HAHAHA. hmm im bored and i want a smile :(

2005-01-07T02:40:00.000-08:00

070105

would you look me in the eye
and tell me tht youre happy now

-GRIN :D our lit elect class rocks! got GRACE! got PHOEBE! i followed neri to her photo taking. and phoebe pinched my cheeks. anyway i gave my MOST retarded smile for the photo, i think it wasnt even a smile. it was a clown face :(

alright. we met sherrie today!! when we were gng MACRITCHIE for TRAINING. i hugged her! :) eugenia came to ny tday! nus high uni is q nice! -looks at my maid uniform. :/ and on 852 all the sec 3s were squished there lah. and we were like dancing around in the bus cuz it kept jerking and evryone was losing balance.......DOT DOT.

AND THEN. hhaha. im still laughing about it lah. the bus gave this enormous jerk and evryone flew to the right and uh me sen and evryone behind sen were sprawled on the floor laughing. and i suposedly pulled pongs shirt ~~off~~. :D i laughed till i cried hahaha. such an embarrassing sight and the entire bus was completely appalled.

trg was actually okay. just tht i skip so many until my fitness sucks :( heh and me and jiachin were WINKING at each other -.- yeah. :) i had leg cramps when we were walking back. :( im damn hungry, whole day eat a few sticks of pocky only? i live on water these days. my ponytail irritates me haha.

:)

2005-01-06T01:29:00.000-08:00

060105

im just scared to
know the answer
do you want me too

:D today rocks and i dont know why! haha! anw my class is actually nice (: i think im abit noisy :/ sherm wrote me a letter :) sherm do you know that you brightened up lala's day! hahah. when i got to sch the stupid!!! cat kept jumping into my lap AGAIN mygod i was so pissed! haha. i kept puting it on the ground so it went winding around my leg and pounced on my lap again! so i flounced off in a HUFF hahahah :D

i keep laughing nowadays haha. esp during chi! the tchr's accent is like damn funny! and she keeps calling us xiao peng you! hurrrrrrrrrrrrr she reminds me of a scarecrow >< i saw the chem teacher's cleavage! sen drooled! har har har and shes been putting her hands in my track jacket tday and i didnt knw!

my sisters joining track. my brothers joining track. oh i recognise the ny girl in his orientation grp! HAHA. stupid cams full of his KISSINGpics lah. and he showed my RETARDEDpic to his friends! GRR! im kind of thankful for school now =x

2005-01-05T01:18:00.000-08:00

050105

ive done all that i can
to stand on the steps with
my heart in my hand

damn you. haha ugh i cant rmb dates anym. mhm cca day is TODAY! and guess what? at 430 the sec ones were stl in the audi lah. like we waited SO long. :/ but todays a nice nice day! :) recess was REALLY hilarious! and just now sherrie came to school YAY! sherrie i love you! i gave her a hug! :) lessons were alright, i kept drifting..haha. we watched OSAMA. im the cmePLUSpccg rep lah pls. thanks to chitra. :/ HAHA AND LIXUAN IS THE MONITRESS!

shit, ive yet to start trg

2005-01-03T23:15:00.000-08:00

040105

then it hit me from nowhere
everything i feel abt me and you

im im school now. in 313. haha. our sci tchr rocks haha shes so cute! and she was combing her hair with the MARKER HAHAH then me and sen were laughing away. the other lessons were bloody boring. i cant wait til the end of this yr. yah we're like in january :(

and lixuan was imitating ms yeo in pe HAHA. she got a bit pissed cuz we crossed the line -puts hand in line position- yawn la

OH YEAH hahah neri says her eyes have been blinking more and YES THEY ARE. haha oh man i have been laughing so much! esp during recess. :) i sat at the bench waiting for my dad and this cat kept jumping into my lap. i felt like crying right there and i blinked so much and i thought of nerissa's blinking issue :)

~~anyone wld just say im crazy. YOU HAVE NO BEEPING IDEA :'(~~

stupid now im gna be stuck doing maths all night. I FINISHED MATHS IN 2 HRS HAHAHAHA i rock. nvr copy alright :D we're meeting sherrie tmrw! i just threw a hourglass pic and the words history file for my stupid hist file. bah. still have the track posters. haha i feel like writing 'join track now;regret later"

2005-01-03T04:54:00.000-08:00

030105

so im counting my tears
till i get over you

schools alright apart from the fact that my class is boring :) thats not very alright haha anyway our form teacher's some ex-rgs track coach, YEAH

and i miss neri being in the same class to slack with me and our toilet trips and secrets and all that and i miss 204. isnt something missing

2005-01-02T01:40:00.000-08:00

020105

if you think that
youre strong enough
if you think you belong enough
NICE DREAM

school starts tomorrow and god, im sooooooo bad tempered. and the sight of that place is such a turn off

bah i lost my template, links and all..isnt this great, something else to make me bad tempered again. oh i found my links haha. have a nice day

2005-01-01T01:32:00.000-08:00

010105

if i could move just one fingernail
to scratch your name on the back of my hand
so i would never forget you again

SANDY IS HORNY! haha! my sister cut her hair. she looks like a little baby! i was forbidden to cut my hair can. like stupid. -sulks. i do not want to tie hair lah. ah fine haha anyway happy new yr. :)

2004-12-30T20:39:00.000-08:00

311204

how many mornings
she wakes up with hope
only to find tears

its the last day of the year! i got nothing to say.

alright now i do. haha. new years eve and all i did was play solitaire. with alf, with xinfu, with wanfang, with whoever wants to up their percent. me and ulrica had 15 rounds straight. while lee xinfu drew squiggles =x watching some hilarious show. hahaha. omg. bergers have a date at the bench on monday alright! as usual :)

2004-12-29T23:31:00.000-08:00

301204

a new beginning
a new chapter of my life
started the day
when i thought
it could be my last
my eyes were wide shut but i hadnt given up
just thought i'd be walking the world alone

out of the blue
there i met you
showed me a life i cant see without you
and theres just no way
that i can fight these emotions
your energy running through me
nobody can renew me like you

out of the blue
can this be true?

family and friends they were my life
i wasnt one for butterflies
but you gave me love that i cant disguise
and there will be times when were apart
i want you to know you're in my heart
growing into a beautiful garden

no emotions
my whole body felt like ice
needed to feel that the sun would shine my way
my world had turned to dust
but i had my faith and trust
just thought i'd be walking the world alone

i watched so many shows today. i watched pple get high on ecstasy. alright, like whats new anyway.

2004-12-29T02:37:00.000-08:00

291204

wasnt jumping
for me it was a fall
its a long way down
to nothing at all

WASSUP. hahahah. i hate saying that. uh anw. i spent a lot of time running around. before i finaly got to bible society/house/whatever you call it. haha. we learnt alot today! mhm. it was nice! and pingpong have nice hair! they should style it all the time like that! haha i finished my commonwealth thing. its so out of point but not like im tryna win or what. (: